Life’s (5 ft x 5 ft Illuminated!) Sign

Ever wish the universe would send you some sort of sign?  I once saw an interview with Gwyneth Paltrow where she described that the signs of the universe are all around you, as long as you are open to receiving them.  I love that concept and would like to think of myself as a peaceful, Zen individual, sitting in the position my kids would call ‘criss-cross-applesauce’, palms to the sky, open to my sign.

But the truth of the matter is, I’m caffeinated and busy.  I fret and pace and twitch and my analytical side gets the best of me and therefore I’m really, really horrible at making decisions.  Pros, cons, what if this or what if that….I can play a scenario out a million different ways and find the right or wrong to each.  When friends call me for advice I’ll say, “which do you want?  Because I can talk you in or out of either.”  And its true…I can.

That’s the thing. I want to make the decision…I want to control it.  Once in a while, I’ll throw a bone to the universe and play a silly little game between myself and a digital clock where I base decisions (yes!  real life decisions) on whether or not the time ends in an even or odd number.

“isn’t that how it works sometimes – the big decisions, I mean.  You don’t actually make them, you just roll into them once they’ve become inevitable” – David Ebershoff

So I’ve been keeping this secret blog.  Just as a place to capture my thoughts and work things out.  Not entirely sure of what I want to do with it all.  Last Monday night, I put the kids to bed and hunkered down, typed and three hours later had written a piece I’m pretty proud of.  Before I could think twice I sent it The Huffington Post.  The next day sitting in the parking lot of my daughter’s dance class, I got an email asking if they could run my piece next week.  I’m excited and scared…but hopeful that it will resonate with just the person who needs it, at just the time they need it.

And so yesterday I brought my secret blog out of the hiding and nervously told friends and family about it.  It was a bit scary, but actually very validating to hear so much positive feedback.  But it still sets those butterflies in my stomach a flutter.

Feeling both emboldened and vulnerable I went to dinner with friends for Chicago’s restaurant week at a cool, hipster spot.  As I walked past the tables I noticed this huge back-lit sign decorating the walls.  When I stopped and read it, I laughed…..there was my sign!  Its perfect. 

So thank you, universe, for making it an obvious…I mean really obvious, giant 5 foot x 5 foot, illuminated sign obvious!  

None of my friends noticed the sign on the restaurant wall, so another thank you universe, for letting me see it and therefore opening me up to receive my sign.  

And lastly, thank you universe, for allowing me to share some words and thoughts that might just land on someone who needs it and help point them to their sign.

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2 Comments on Life’s (5 ft x 5 ft Illuminated!) Sign

  1. scott Johnson
    September 16, 2013 at 11:10 pm

    IT IS REALLY VERY HELPFUL FOR ME.I LIKE YOUR POST BECAUSE IT IS VERY USEFUL FOR ME AS WELL. HOPING THE SAME FINEST OPERATE IN THE UP COMING DAYS ALSO. THANK YOU!

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